I’ll still be missing you as much as ever. I’ll still smile at the memory of you. I’ll still be - Okay, I’ll say it again - loving you, but I won’t abandon myself for you. I cannot be faithful to you without being faithful to myself.
—Stargirl (via itsthewaitingunknown)
She laughed when there was no joke. She danced when there was no music.
She had no friends, yet she was the friendliest person in school.
In her answers in class, she often spoke of sea horses and stars, but she did not know what a football was…
She was elusive. She was today. She was tomorrow. She was the faintest scent of a cactus flower, the flitting shadow of an elf owl. We did not know what to make of her. In our minds we tried to pin her to a corkboard like a butterfly, but the pin merely went through and away she flew.
—Jerry Spinelli, Stargirl (via quotes-shape-us)
You know, there’s a place we all inhabit, but we don’t much think about it, we’re scarcely conscious of it, and it lasts for less than a minute a day…. It’s in the morning, for most of us. It’s that time, those few seconds when we’re coming out of sleep but we’re not really awake yet. For those few seconds we’re something more primitive than what we are about to become. We have just slept the sleep of our most distant ancestors, and something of them and their world still clings to us. For those few moments we are unformed, uncivilized. We are not the people we know as ourselves, but creatures more in tune with a tree than a keyboard. We are untitled, unnamed, natural, suspended between was and will be, the tadpole before the frog, the worm before the butterfly. We are, for a few brief moments, anything and everything we could be. And then… and then – ah – we open our eyes and the days is before us, and – we become ourselves.
—Stargirl (Jerry Spinelli)
Jerry Spinelli, Stargirl